Stomach: No! No! What have you done?! How could you put me through this?! I just spent the past 2 weeks doing those painful bicycle crunches!
Tongue: I needed a Spa Day for myself, and the chocolate cake massage was the best one on the list.
Stomach: Without my permission? I couldn’t feel myself for days after those crunches, and you are the one who needed a Spa Day?
Tongue: After everything I do for you, after all the boring food that I put up with, don’t you think I deserve to be treated right with food that tastes divine?!
As Tongue continued to indulge in more such Spa Days, Tongue and Stomach headed towards Splitsville
Brain: Oh no! What now! I am going to gain 2 pounds. Oh no! I have already gained 4 pounds. No! no! What about those clothes I just bought?! When can I wear them! I cannot believe I spent money on nice clothes and then had a Chocolate Frappe! I mean who does that? I could have used that money in so many better ways! I think I need to calm down, its really no big deal. I will just eat right tomorrow. But then how will I ever wear that bikini?! No its ok, I am sure I will get there. But stupid sugar, stupid calories. I am a fool. Oh but it tasted so good!*
Heart: Omg! He finally liked my Instagram Picture! Those crunches paid off!!
*If anyone got a sneak peak inside my brain, it would probably be the hardest maze they have encountered. And all the perpetual overthinking that I put my mind through on an hourly basis would stop them from ever coming out.
And that’s the story of how I fell off the wagon.
The Back Story
After my 10th grade, I decided to drop “Mathematics”. Mathematical Anxiety is a real thing. Going any further with the subject would do me no good. But 7 years after I left the subject it came to bite me again in the form of “Quant” in GMAT. In order to fulfill my dream of doing an MBA from an Ivy League and all that jazz meant tryst with my favorite subject. But the only thing that happened was our break-up. Over and over.
My father often says:
“Anything good in life is either expensive, illegal or not good for your health.” Now how is it that all the food that seemed to be the cure for my battle with maths fell under the last category?
I kept telling myself that eating junk or eating outside during such a *painful* time was totally acceptable.
I was preparing for my GMAT, in the middle of my college applications, a full time job, and an Airbnb business to look after. What I realized is that sometimes you just can’t be in the right state of mind. And sometimes (like in my case), you don’t have the time to prepare 6-7 different meals.
The problem isn’t with what the outside world tells you about how you look or about what you should eat. The conflict is from within.
I am always caught between: I need to look good vs. I need to stay fit. I am caught between I have no time to cook vs. is it ok to eat outside?
Amidst answering these questions, what happens if you lose track altogether?
- Figure out what triggered your fall:
Rewind. When did you stop focussing on your lifestyle? What made you want to eat food you usually consider unhealthy? Was it stress? Was it lack of time to prepare good meals? Was it anxiety? Or did you just not feel like it anymore?
Get to the roots. Thats the only way to address the problem.
2. Accept what is happening
STOP living in denial. The sooner you accept that things have gone wrong, the faster you can get back on track.
3. If you choose to eat out, pick the healthiest option
*Clicks on Swiggy*
*Orders most appetizing a.k.a fried/deep fried/not to enter the body looking food
There are many healthy options available – you just need to look int the right places. Remember to look for the ingredients and nutrients you are going to consume rather than the calories.
4. Look back at the results achieved so far
Try on that old t-shirt you thought would never fit you again. Compare how you felt before you started the journey vs. now. The change isn’t just what I see in the mirror. It’s what I feel from within. I have more energy, I experience happiness, I am able to focus on multiple things, try it guys – there are numerous benefits that come with the “Stay Fit” package!
5. Start Over
I went back and read Rujuta Diwekar’s Don’t Lose Your Mind, Lose Your Weight to figure out where I was going wrong. Once I did this, it was easy for me to figure out the deviations. I was skipping most of my mid day meals and ended up eating a more during one meal (and desserts – oh those evil little things)
Its been a week since I have gotten back to eating clean and trying to find a balance. I am not going to say its easy, there is no magic formula here, except determination to work on yourself. To anyone who is working on a goal, keep at it. Its ok to stumble, in fact its almost essential because the second time around you work that much harder.
Every single step counts, every single work out counts. You may not see the results overnight, but when you do – you will love yourself for having started!
P.S. Stay tuned for ‘Yesterday you Said tomorrow – Part 2’ by our Guest Blogger
I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below! I am looking for ways in which I can help you on your journey, so do let me know if there is anything in particular you want to read about in the next few features on the blog!